| | i'm sort of annoyed with things lately. i hate the amount of stress in my life. more than that, i hate how i deal with the amount of stress in my life. i seem to sweep most of my troubles under the rug and then they come back and bite me in the ass. the deficiency notices came out last week. caitlin is "deficient" in three classes! not failing anything..just not doing well. an example of how i avoid stress: practicing cello to ungodly hours of the night, just so that i can say that i have a reason for not doing any of my homework. i don't think i've -really- done homework for a couple years. unless it's reading. i really like reading.
and it's not like i've practiced my senior concerto...at all. when i sit down to practice i'm always spending more time on things pertaining to technique or bach suites or concertos that i probably wont' perform until i'm a senior in college.
you know what makes me really self-conscious? dressing up and looking "nice" makes me feel more self-conscious than anything. it really really does. i hate putting makeup on and doing my hair. it's so exhausting. and it forces me to look in the mirror more than i like. i feel the ugliest when people tell me i look "cute".
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| | Posted 5/4/2006 11:23 PM - 1 View - 10 eProps - 5 comments
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